媽媽這種矛盾的生物

媽媽這種矛盾的生物

【矛盾之始】
你初生時,便便太多又怕你肚痾,沒有便便又擔心你便秘。
你清醒時,很想你快點去睡,讓我享受一點私人時間
到你睡了,又會掛念你的聲音和搗蛋的時刻,拿你的相片和影片看過不停

【自私的老師】
很想教你不同的事物,到你學懂了,又很懷念你什麼都不懂的日子

【負傷的療傷者】
我不小心弄傷了自己,你看到我很痛,難過得想哭,然後我要抱抱安慰你。(受傷的明明是我呀….)

【既軟弱又剛強】
自從你來到世界,你就成了我最大的弱點,我很易害怕,擔心世途險惡保護不了你。
但亦因為你,我變得很強大,超出自己想像的強大。

【終極的矛盾】
很想你有自己的主見,但又很想你聽我說
很想你長大能自立,但又很想你永遠不要長大

A Mom’s dilemmas

[The beginning]
I got worried when you don’t poop, I got worried when you poop too much.
When you are awake, I want you to sleep earlier, so that I can enjoy a bit of me time. But when you are asleep, I miss you and I can’t help viewing your photos and videos.

[A Selfish Teacher]
I want to teach you everything, but when you finally learnt something new, I miss the time when you knew nothing, when you were so innocent.

[The Wounded Healer]
One day I injured myself, when you saw me in pain, you wanted to cry, and I ended up comforting you. (well, I am the one who got injured….)

[Weak but Strong]
You became my biggest weakness when you entered the world. I am so scared, how am I going to protect you in this evil world? But also because of you, I became so strong and powerful, to a point that I couldn’t ever imagine.

[The Ultimate Dilemma]
I want you to be yourself, to have your own thoughts, but I want you to listen to me as well.
I want you to grow up, to be independent, but I also don’t want you to grow up, to be independent, not so fast…

4 Replies to “媽媽這種矛盾的生物”

  1. 雖然唔係阿媽,但我略略體會嗰份矛盾!我有時幫手湊B,同佢玩嗰陣又開心又攰;yuen 住要你抱時又攰又窩心;佢瞓晏覺時又享受可以靜下,但又會時不時望住個bb cam 睇下醒未、做乜瞓咁耐、唔通有事、係咪窒息 (開始亂諗野) 😆

    1. 哈哈哈哈!係呀,成日都會亂諗嘢!你好有潛質呀!!

  2. Maria Deng says: Reply

    This is such a beautiful poem Christy! I definitely can relate as I feel the exact same way, even though I don’t always say it out loud to anyone. I felt so sad reading this poem as I realized that one day, our little ones will grow up, and we will look back on this time that we shared with them and be grateful we had it, and will never forget it. Thank you for being so bold to write something so wonderful! Your English is amazing! 😘

    1. Dear Maria you are so kind! Thank you for taking the time to read my stuff. It means a lot to me 🙂
      I am so glad that we can share our feelings, as being a mom is tough, it is so important to have supports from other moms!

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